52 to Fabulous: What A Girl Wants (Week 1)

At the beginning of a new year, resolutions are on a lot of people’s minds (except for those that have decided after so many years of setting and not doing, it isn’t even worth the time thinking about them!). I don’t set them every year, but I am feeling like 2010 requires a new start after an eventful 2009, that did not include consistent blog posts. So I made 2 modest ones in my post - A New Year, A New Start for…, - get a weekly routine (like writing a weekly post) and live in the present.

Right after I posted, I then saw a post from the always inspiring (and just plain cool) Kelby Carr about her 3 words for 2010. Which got me thinking about what mine would be/are for 2010. Then I saw Linda’s announcement of 52 to Fabulous (and after I read and realized it was not about being fabulous at 52 ;-), I thought the stars are aligning and participating in this challenge may actually encourage me stick to my resolutions, well at least post weekly (little victories!).

For right now at this moment (a girl can change her mind…), my wants for 2010 are aligned with my guiding words for the year:

1. Focus because any one that knows me, knows that I am either over-focused or all over the map with ideas. And I want/need to trim to FOCUS on the meaningful this year. Finding what matters, what is important, and focusing my energy on it. This also goes back to my desire to have a weekly routine.

2. Present because I find myself never enjoying the moment. I want to be present when I am playing with my kids, not thinking about what other things I should be working on. Undivided commitment to the present. Not dwelling on the past and what might have been, or thinking to future. I know people should plan, and I will do planning for the future, but I will do my best not to pine for the week to end or long for the next sunny day. I want to be present in every experience - good or bad. Time passes too quickly, it is important to be present.

3. True by being honest with myself and understanding my wants. As adults we get lost in life, in pleasing those around us, particularly after becoming a parent. It gets hard to distinguish what I want (or is what I want just what is easier for the family?). I want to make 2010 to be the year that I am true to my feelings and separate them from what others want. This doesn’t mean to make decisions without regard to the wants or needs of those around me. Not to make decisions that are just the path of least resistance, but are true to what I believe is right.

Maybe these wants are too broad or general, oh well, have to start thinking about what a girl needs…